Letting HIS vision lead me.

i have been struggling, no more like wrestling, with the Lord lately about how involved do i need to be in planning my future?

profound question no? ;)

well if that does not make sense to you then maybe you haven't experienced this phenomenon, but basically what i am getting at is what roll, if any, do i play in the course of my future?

well here's what i've gotten from the Lord---He has a plan. and He is going to carry it out no matter what I do. He would prefer me to follow on His side of things, however He is going to do what He has planned. one proverb says, "many are the plans in a man's heart but it is the Lord's purpose that prevails"

basically what God has been revealing to me is that my little illusion of control is just that: an illusion. It is not real. Yes I obviously make decisions about my everyday life and even the direction my life takes (let us not get into the free will/God's will thing) however, if I desire to live a God LED life, I cannot be the one ultimately calling the shots....not even a little bit.

i want to make sure and get to know this person so i can have that connection so i can go to this school or this country....while making connections is not bad, what is my true motivation? is it my desires or the Lord's will?

some things God doesn't micromanage, He says: seek me, love me, and don't worry.

i feel as if i am rambling. hopefully you are understanding me. because sometimes i do not understand me. :)

if something is going to happen, it will happen. not because of my manipulation or contribution, but because of God's purpose and His divine will. How dare i think that my little manipulations control the outcome of an entire situation? not giving up my responsibility for my actions...but come on....sometimes we honestly make it worse when we get our hands in a situation.

hmmm....God is teaching me to lean on Him. Trust Him for my future. Trust Him for his direction. Trust Him for my spouse. Trust Him for my children. Trust Him. Trust Him and His vision---not my limited earthly perspective.

there is it....trust His vision and not my own. Let HIS vision lead me.

this verse is basically what settled my heart, it came up twice in one day. thank you Holy Spirit:

"Unless the Lord builds a house the work of the builders is wasted.
Unless the Lord protects a city guarding it with sentries will do no good.
It is useless for you to work so hard from early morning until late at night, anxiously working for food to eat; for God gives rest to his loved one." --Psalm 127:1-2

God give me rest.

love to the cosmos. hope you were blessed.

heller

i haven't written in a while.

and while i do not believe that there is any particular person that has been disappointed in this fact (unless you frequently check my blog...you creeper you) it is none the less a personal disappointment because i enjoy putting my thoughts onto paper...or screen rather.

and i enjoy blogging many of these thoughts for the purpose of encouraging others around me and also to keep people updated on my goings on.

not that there are a lot of goings on but i do my best to keep busy. :)

so without further ado i have no profound thoughts or insights this morning (or maybe even ever) but i do have this one fact that has kept me going this semester.

God is there.

God is present and He is not going any where. while life is crazy and things pile up. and while life changes occur He is still there. His presence does not diminish the seriousness or sadness of some of our life situations--faith does not mean you are happily drugged and numb to the world all of the time--God's presence means hope.

hope for redemption (ultimately and in this world) and a hope in his promises and plans.

Hope.

God is there and He is bigger, He is better, and He is just amazing.

all we need is HIm (please sing to the tune of the beatles all you need is love)

well to all of you reading, but mostly to those of you who are not i send out a prayer to you: find Hope in God's promises. find comfort in His Holy Spirit and stop putting pressure on yourself to make things better or make yourself feel better. just give it to God. sit. wait. live.

kisses <><