Letting HIS vision lead me.

i have been struggling, no more like wrestling, with the Lord lately about how involved do i need to be in planning my future?

profound question no? ;)

well if that does not make sense to you then maybe you haven't experienced this phenomenon, but basically what i am getting at is what roll, if any, do i play in the course of my future?

well here's what i've gotten from the Lord---He has a plan. and He is going to carry it out no matter what I do. He would prefer me to follow on His side of things, however He is going to do what He has planned. one proverb says, "many are the plans in a man's heart but it is the Lord's purpose that prevails"

basically what God has been revealing to me is that my little illusion of control is just that: an illusion. It is not real. Yes I obviously make decisions about my everyday life and even the direction my life takes (let us not get into the free will/God's will thing) however, if I desire to live a God LED life, I cannot be the one ultimately calling the shots....not even a little bit.

i want to make sure and get to know this person so i can have that connection so i can go to this school or this country....while making connections is not bad, what is my true motivation? is it my desires or the Lord's will?

some things God doesn't micromanage, He says: seek me, love me, and don't worry.

i feel as if i am rambling. hopefully you are understanding me. because sometimes i do not understand me. :)

if something is going to happen, it will happen. not because of my manipulation or contribution, but because of God's purpose and His divine will. How dare i think that my little manipulations control the outcome of an entire situation? not giving up my responsibility for my actions...but come on....sometimes we honestly make it worse when we get our hands in a situation.

hmmm....God is teaching me to lean on Him. Trust Him for my future. Trust Him for his direction. Trust Him for my spouse. Trust Him for my children. Trust Him. Trust Him and His vision---not my limited earthly perspective.

there is it....trust His vision and not my own. Let HIS vision lead me.

this verse is basically what settled my heart, it came up twice in one day. thank you Holy Spirit:

"Unless the Lord builds a house the work of the builders is wasted.
Unless the Lord protects a city guarding it with sentries will do no good.
It is useless for you to work so hard from early morning until late at night, anxiously working for food to eat; for God gives rest to his loved one." --Psalm 127:1-2

God give me rest.

love to the cosmos. hope you were blessed.